God Sighting | October 16, 2007

I can only deduce that yesterday I was launched into a kind of spiritual warfare, a kind that plunged me into a depression to the point of physical dizziness and wanting to go to bed and die. It came suddenly, but when it left, it left just as quickly. In the midst of the fray, I wrote down two prayer requests:

1. The Lord would put me in an environment of covenant love. I realize that the last two years were notably lacking in this, which further excaberated certain hardships that were encountered.

2. To be focused on opportunities of today, and not worries of tomorrow. This was a response to, in part, the war that was going on in my mind yesterday.

Today I had time to go to a newly formed, small family of college-aged people. Before we got started, we passed around a sheet to sign with some previously agreed upon values shared by those in the group. The point of it was to provide a safe environment for growth and frankness. The last line of it contained the phrase, “I covenant together with the other members of the group to honor this agreement.” Answered prayer. Uninhibited, tears of thankfulness would have fallen right then and there. And by the end of our time together, it definitely proved to be that kind of environment. As for the prayer to focus on opportunities of today, I was able to get started on a long overdue letter of appreciation to someone.

Now, my prayer is that I can drop a badly taught class without major consequences so that I can have more time to meet together like this, and also to serve in the capacity given me.

“Hallelujah, He has found me,
the One my soul so long has craved.
Jesus satisfies
all my longings,
through His blood I now am saved.”